hmm.saw adriel,sam,jingsi at bustop on the way to sch.. when we reached sch,sanchia saw us,and waved to jingsi(i didnt think she was waving to me,but she thought otherwise). -.- wtf. bio test postponed .HEH. after sch got co,i learned the SYF song alrdy ^^.teacher say i can go da zu nxt wk,but i dun wan go,still gt to practice more >.<.. co ended,went home with lsm,she said wad sanchia somehow "afraid" of me. wth,i dont even like her now,duno why shes avoidin me >_>
hey ashkie, yea, you're pretty much on point throughout your post. no self-control, guilt, shame, uncertainty, hidden reasons, doubts. everything, even if small ones, piles up together eventually and becomes too heavy to bear. and costed our relationship, which i probably shouldn't have went for when i wasn't ready. so many decisions that i made on a whim these past months which caused so much grief within the 3 of us. i definitely need to reflect and find back myself before i get together with anyone, be it with you, her, or someone else. i would have to get over both of you; right now at my current state, i would long for one if i'm with the other. i would have to learn to move on, learn from my mistakes and forgive myself too; not sure how i'm gonna do that, but i'll manage eventually. you definitely deserve better, not just me at my best, but also potentially someone else better too. you probably heard it a thousand times already, but i'm ju...
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